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About Me Member Experimental Photographer KayleneFemale/Canada Recent Activity Deviant for 6 Months
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Lost Love

Mon Jun 15, 2009, 7:23 PM
Sometimes I wonder if things could have been different…If could have been a better person, or If could have been prettier, or skinnier…or more honest and faithful. Sometimes I hate myself for what I am and what I have done to make myself this way. I’ve hurt so many people in my life…I don’t mean to but I do…and I hate myself for it everyday. There is one person that I hurt the most…I hate myself so much for hurting him…he was the best thing that had ever happened to me…and I lost him. Forever.

I think about him everyday and dream of him every night. He is my moon, my sun, my stars, my whole universe. I cant live without him…although I am still living…my soul is gone. It pains me to see him with another who doesn’t love him as much as I did and still do. I wasn’t faithful and I wasn’t honest…but I love him with every part of me…even though I cant tell him anymore. I miss him more than words could ever say. If I had the chance again I would tell him so many things that I cant now…

I would tell him he’s my everything and that I wouldn’t be able to last one more day without him…the days have been long and hard without him and I cry almost every night because I’m not sleeping by his side. I miss cuddling with him and the endless hours of talking into the wee hours of the morning. I long to kiss him in the rain just one more time. I long to hold him in my arms and tell him I love him one last time. It would make me so happy…but I know it would never happen again. I can only hope and wish I can find something as good I had with him.

He still has my book…I hope. He told me the story reminded him of us. I wish we could just run away together and leave everything behind. Just like the characters in the book did…

I miss Kenny so much…I want to be with him everyday like it used to be…we were inseparable. Always together. Never apart. Love surrounding us. It was like a fairy tale…almost too good to be true, and I made it that way. I made it fall apart. And now he’s with someone else….and I am no longer in the picture….never will be again. *sigh* I’m just going to have to learn to live without him.

  • Listening to: I Will Follow You Into The Dark
  • Reading: n/a
  • Watching: My msn convos blink orange
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  • Eating: n/a
  • Drinking: Milk

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My name is Kaylene....i am 17 years old with Blueish-Black hair lol i have hazel eyes and i am about 5"7. My friends are my world so dont fuck with them or your have me to deal with...i know, scary, right? who am i kidding...im just an average girl living life to the fullest like everyone else...wanna know more? send a message.

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  • Current Residence: 100 Mile House B.C.
  • Interests: drinking....smoking pot....hanging out with friends....the usual.
  • Favourite movie: The Crow, The Notebook, A walk to remember...and many others.
  • Favourite band or musician: Disturbed, Slipknot, Cradle of Filth, Children of Bodom. And many others.
  • Favourite genre of music: Metal.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Nicholas Sparks
  • Favourite photographer: Anyone who holds a camera.
  • Favourite style of art: Abstract
  • Operating System: Computer and cell phone.
  • MP3 player of choice: i-pod
  • Wallpaper of choice: Pot Leaf
  • Favourite game: Resistance: fall of man
  • Favourite cartoon character: Tweety.
  • Personal Quote: Stop Being Perfect...Evolve.

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